An empty facade
Careless, mildly reckless
Almost so cynical, Almost so delusive.

ohkay, so this week was
vivo & Night At The Museum & haz's sleepover at my place /
lunch with priya&stacey & Night At The Museum(again) with them
(stacey & priya, DUMBDUMB WANT GUMGUM!) /
Priya's place, 7 eleven, the talks & walks
(AND! TRISHA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MY ALL-TIME FAVOURITE 2 YEAR OLD GIRL)
priya love, rmbr the promise we made to each other. forever :) /
dinner at west coast with gorgeous sexy beautiful lovvvvely, Bestie love & the funniest guy in the world, Kannan
(lessons learnt : NEVER have chicken rice after the sun sets & now i know what teh chino means)
& thank you shobi, for the very very pretty bangles & MASALA TEA(!!!) /
endless meet-ups with the friends :)

i have to learn again, what appreciating means.
the new year's coming, it only means A's for me.
i must not lose myself on the way, but how can i, when i haven't even found myself.

I'm a war of head versus heart.




& i'm sorry for everything i couldn't/didn't do, 2006.
i really am ;
i feel sorry for, myself.

How, can I be so ignorant.

somehow, i feel like just staying home the week of xmas.
fill up the empty pages of the notebook.
pause for a lil' while & think, pen it all down.
look, & watch the people around me.
or sit on a stone bench, along the busy streets, watch people pass me by.
people. people who've found themselves, peeople who haven't.

I'd like to go to the mountains, sit in a coffee house, & just, remind myself of how beautiful life is.
how beautiful creation is. :)

Where do you go when you're blue/
Where do you go when you're lonely.

just so you know, this feeling's taken control of me and,
i can't help it.
how can you, of all people, make me so happy in such an effortless , amazing fashion.

oh, & i've taken sthg off my interests, we all need to move on at some point of our lives, yes? :)

XOXO.
I feel so ugly, so inadequate.
(not that the 2 are parallel t each other, in any way)

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby.

Hello beautiful, hope you have a good day.
Merry xmas.

Shaminah.

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